Thursday, 31 March 2016

A difficult decision...

So it's the eve of the A to Z Challenge 2016, and normally (well, based on what happened last year) I'd be writing my last few posts, double checking everything is scheduled correctly and just generally getting excited for the coming month.

But I'm not.

I know during my theme reveal that I said that I had 1001 things to do in April, but that I was planning on completing the challenge anyway because I absolutely loved taking part last year. My enthusiasm and passion for this challenge hasn't changed, but over the past few days I've had to come to a very diffcult decision. I have decided that I won't be taking part in the A to Z Challenge this year.

It breaks my heart to write it - I feel like I'm letting my fellow bloggers down, I'm letting my readers down, but most of all, I'm letting myself down. I so so badly wanted to prove to myself that I could do it. I wanted to show myself that actually, I was capable of juggling 100 different things while also completing the challenge, but the fact is, I've come to know myself a lot better over the past few years and I know deep down, I wouldn't have been able to do everything that needs to be done this month - something would have to give. And although it's unfortunate, I've decided that the challenge is the thing that has to go.

In brief: life sometimes just gets in the way of the things we really want to do. But I'm willing to sacrifice my blogging and my writing for a little while because of all the other exciting things that are happening right now i.e....

I'm getting married in July, and I have things to organise for the wedding that I can no longer put off; my and my fiance are currently in the process of moving up to Cumbria - which is incredibly exciting and I can't wait - but equally, that means that we have to sort out our house in Norfolk, we need to find somewhere to live in Cumbria because my parents don't want us to live with them forever (understandably) and, in turn, that means that I need to find a job ASAP. The Engineer has already found a job, which is fantastic, but that also means that now everything is starting to feel very real - I can no longer just dream about moving back up to Cumbria, because we're actually doing it - and that means that the most important thing on my ever-growing to-do list right now is to find a job.

So for the rest of the holidays, that's going to be my absolute priority - job hunting and booking all the last minute things for the wedding that need to be done. Am I sad that I'm giving up the challenge? Well, yes, but equally no - because I've finally admitted my choice to myself, I actually feel a lot better than I have been the last few days. I no longer feel quite such a crushing weight of pressure to get everything done by tomorrow, and that's such a huge relief.

I'll still be around, and I'll definitely be keeping up with the A to Z Challenge on other blogs - who knows, maybe later in the year I'll do my own little challenge and pop up all the posts I was going to do in April, so you guys can still read them :). But for now, I'm getting my head down and facing up to my responsibilites (for once).

So best of luck to everyone who's taking part in the challenge tomorrow - I hope you all have a fantastic time and, even though I won't be posting, I'll be right here cheering you all on from the sidelines :).

Are you taking part in the A to Z Challenge this year? Have you ever had to pull out/stop your hobby to do other things? How did you feel about it?

26 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you won't be able to join us. I'll take you off the list.

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    1. Thanks, Alex. Best of luck with the challenge!

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  2. Sorry things are a little overwhelming at the moment. But sometimes other things needs more of our attention than the things we'd like to be doing. Priortising is a skill and I think, from reading your post, you have done the right thing. It's sad you're not joining us but we are all very happy about the exciting things going on with you. Have a great weekend.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words, Nicola. Have a lovely weekend!

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  3. Last year, I ended up pulling out of the challenge at the last minute. I just had way too much to do and wouldn't have been able to give it the time and attention it deserved.

    And I've had to put writing aside to deal with my day job. Though it was a necessary evil, I never enjoyed doing that very much.

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    1. That's exactly how I feel this year, M.J. - I just didn't feel like there was any point in continuing if I wasn't going to give it my all. I hate it when life gets in the way of writing - fingers crossed you can return to it soon :)

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  4. Good luck with all the work you have to do! I am sorry you don't have time to A to Z, but thank you for supporting those who do :) Happy April! :)

    @TarkabarkaHolgy from
    The Multicolored Diary
    MopDog

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    1. Thank you! I'm looking forward to seeing what everyone else has come up with for the challenge!

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  5. Congratulations, and yes, real life is most important! Especially, all that you have on your plate! Keep us informed of your progress if you can, otherwise, wishing you all the best!

    We will miss you during the A to Z!
    Ninga Minion @YolandaRenee from
    Defending The Pen
    Parallels
    Murderous Imaginings

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    1. Thanks, Yolanda :). I will keep you all updated! Have fun doing A to Z :)!

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  6. I'm sorry that you had to pull out, but I think you made the right call. You've got some major responsibilities going on. All the best with getting everything done!

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  7. Sounds like the right decision for you right now, Rachel. Good luck with the job hunt ... exciting times ahead with the move and wedding to look forward to.

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  8. Good luck on the move and finding a job. The A-Z will come around again next year - and you'll already be prepared for it!

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    1. Thanks, Lexa! Next year I'll make sure I'm more prepared :)!

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  9. Life happens-yes, good luck on the move and your job search! Good luck and wishes to you~

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    1. Thank you for your kind words, Ella :)

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  10. There are times you have to look after the important things - and blogging is, actually, not at all important. Good luck with your house move (Norfolk to Cumbria - hard choice!) and your wedding, and see you next year :)
    Jemima Pett - in Norfolk, with cousins in Cumbria :D

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    1. You're so right, Jemima :). And I can always pick up blogging again once everything else has been sorted! Hooray for having connections both in Norfolk AND Cumbria :D!

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  11. Hello from A to Z. Yeah, sometimes things come up. Good luck with your wedding planning and the other stuff. I'm writing a YA book, so we have something in common. Feel free to stop by my blog if you want to chat some more.

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    1. Thank you so much for stopping by, Cynthia :). I'll definitely drop by and check out your website!

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  12. I'm sorry I'm commenting so late. Because I have so much going on and because I can't handle stress well, I haven't done A-Z for a few years now. Don't be too hard on yourself. There is always next year. Besides, you do have a lot on your plate right now. Moving is a big deal. The stress of finding a new job doesn't help either. So, take the time you need to sort out everything. Good-luck.

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    1. I completely understand where you're coming from, Murees! You're right, there is always next year :). Thank you!

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  13. I've done the challenge twice, and although I love it, I know how much energy it takes. We have to be wise in our resources, and that includes our mental/emotional energy. I admire anyone who is wise enough to see what's before them and decide to do what's best.

    Crystal Collier

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    1. It does take up a lot of time and energy! Thank you very much for your kind words, Crystal :)

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