Changing habits...

When I was in school, I was the type of kid that would HAVE to complete her homework and handed it in a day early. There was absolutely no question of me not handing it in - I'm just not a rebel at all.

But as I get older, I'm starting to notice that I tend to leave things later and later. I've always loved schedules and lists and working to deadlines, but lately...I've noticed that if I don't absolutely have to do something by a certain time, I won't. It's an annoying trait that I wish I could stop developing, but somehow, I just keep procrastinating.

This isn't just to do with writing. For example, I've known about a particular job opening for a good three weeks now - so when do I decide to apply? The day applications close. It's like my brain knows I have to get cracking, but there's a delay between my brain and actually, y'know, getting stuff done. I'm kinda hoping this is something I can grow back out of, as I've always prided myself on being an organised person, and if I'm honest, it really does irritate me. I constantly beat myself up for not doing whatever it is I'm supposed to have done, and yet, I still keep putting things off! I like to tell myself it's because I work better to deadlines and under pressure, but the fact is, I'm actually useless under pressure. I panic and sweat and get very VERY anxious.

I don't know - is this something that happens to everyone? Or now that I don't have to get up everyday to work on the farm/go to work, am I just getting lazier? Hopefully it is just a phase - one I'm sure won't be helped by the summer holidays - but one I can eventually change ;).

Happy Monday, everyone!

Do you find that you put things off until the last moment? Do you mind, or do you have a way to break the cycle?