I feel like today has been a good day.
The sun is still shining (unusual for Cumbria), I got bits and pieces of wedding prep done (mother bear would probably disagree, but hey, at least I feel like I've made an effort!) and I had my interview for a new job.
I won't go into specifics of the interview because I'm absolutely terrified I'm going to jinx it, but I'd like to say it went well - hopefully I can let you know more either at the end of this week, or sometime next week, once I hear back from them. That's the hard part now; I've been preparing for this interview for three weeks, and now once again I'm stuck in the agonising waiting game. I feel like I've been waiting forever for the past few weeks to hurry up, and yet, now it seems like it's over in a blur - but I'm sure the next few days/week will feel slow now too.
I'm not getting my hopes up, though. Not because I don't want the job (I can't tell you how badly I want it - it sounds amazing), but because I'm more cautious about getting my hopes up this time around. I'm planning a blog post about the last interview I had, and how I felt after I got rejected from that job, but suffice to say, I'm definitely erring on the side of caution this time around just in case. I'd hate to get all my hopes up, just to have them dashed again.
But I've definitely learnt a lot from the last interview I had - I was more confident giving my presentation this time around, and because I told myself before the interview I wasn't going to get the job, I felt a lot calmer and less pressured - hopefully that came across in my interview answers. I know it probably sounds strange to tell yourself that you won't succeed before you even get into the interview, but to me, this technique works. I don't get all wound up and anxious; instead I think to myself, 'oh well, I'll just do the very best I can and see what happens'. And this way, I know that even if I don't get the job, then at the very least I've gained more valuable experience that I can put into practice at my next interview.
Do you have a technique to help you cope during interviews? Are you playing the waiting game at the moment for anything?