It's been quite a while since I last wrote (I don't even want to check the date on my last post to see when it was!), but after taking a rather unscheduled break, I think I'm finally ready to get back into writing.
I'm not going to bore you with the details of the last few apathetic weeks I've had - quite simply, I'd had enough. I'd had enough of feeling like I wasn't getting anywhere with my novel, of getting rejection after rejection for every job I applied for (or, most of the time, not hearing back at all), of, well, just everything. I know, I know, it sounds so melodramatic but hey, I'm a writer - that's my job :p.
Over the past couple of weeks, I've turned a bit of a corner (although I was knocked back a bit yesterday by getting rejected after another interview - guess what the reason was? Apparently I'm 'too nice'. Great.) - although I'm tired of getting rejected for jobs and for feeling like my writing isn't good enough, I'm also tired of being tired. I'm twenty one for God's sake - I need to realise that not getting a certain job isn't the end of the world. And that writing a novel takes time - if I want to do a good job, I can't write the whole thing in a day.
Essentially, I just needed a bit of breathing space to realise that I haven't failed in life just yet - I have all the time in the world ahead of me to accomplish my dreams. Just because it's not happening for me right now, doesn't mean that it never will.
And so, I'm starting to write my WIP again. Don't get me wrong - over the stress and tantrums and tears of the last few weeks, I've still been writing down certain scene ideas that have come to me, as well as figuring out a whole new marketing plan for the book - if I ever get it finished that is! So that's something positive - at least I still believe in my work and I still believe it has potential. All I need to do now is get down to writing it!
Sorry for the melodramatic post, folks! I promise, I''m going to try and be a bit more positive and grateful for everything I have from now on :).
Hope you all have a good night!
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Aww, I know how that feeling goes! And rejected for a job for being too nice - what's that all about?!
ReplyDeleteYou're right though. Twenty-one is super young, and you have plenty of time to figure everything out. <3
Urgh I know - I've been rejected before for not having enough experience, which is fair enough, but when I got that feedback, I was like, 'what? Do you only employ horrible people or something?!' Ah well - their loss :P!
ReplyDeleteYes! I can't believe it's taken me so long to figure that out, but I really do just need to take a chill pill and relax about everything and just enjoy it while it lasts :)!
All of us get bad news, rejections, etc. It doesn't take a lot until it's weighing us down and we want to crawl into a hole. Don't beat yourself up, take time off, do whatever you need to do to make it through, and you WILL get through it. Just takes time. :-)
ReplyDeleteSo sorry you have been having a stressful time. Sometimes life just seems to bring rejection after rejection. Most of us have felt that at some time. Try and stay positive I am sure things will get better. Take care.
ReplyDeleteDon't get disheartened Rachel, just keep plodding away at them. Try to see the funny side of it all, and remember, there's always someone far worse off than yourself.
ReplyDeleteThanks guys :)! You're all completely right, I just have to stay positive, and I feel a lot better now than I have done over the past few weeks :). And Technogran, you're right - that's the main reason why I decided to stop being so mopey and pessimistic - there are people out there who are so much worse off than me, and I'm going to remember that - I'm so incredibly grateful for everything in my life and I just have to remember that when things don't go my way :)
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